[He laughs a little because he'd learned the dangers of crying a long time ago.]

When the Admiral offered me this job... back home, there's stuff that's simply true, so I accept it because it doesn't matter. [Whether or not he accepts it doesn't matter, and there's too much that needs to be done to waste time fighting it.]

Here, I'm not living against a clock [not in the same way]. Sometimes, that feels harder to accept.