Character Name: Ilde
Canon: Original Character
Position: Inmate
Warden: Xigbar brokenallthelaws
Job: Greenhouse
Age: 20 21
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Application | Ilde was conscripted into the religion of a mad king. Godking Dreus, deluded by his own insanity, believes that the world has become too impure and must be destroyed so that the souls of the people can live free of impurity. He declares that Ilde is the saint who must die alongside him in order to purify them all. While they await the rapidly approaching day of apocalypse, Ilde works in a magic garden tucked away in the cliff beneath the palace. The magic there and Dreus's obsession for her has a certain feverish quality which easily pulls her into the delusion. She dies on the last day, hoping fervently that Dreus is not just a madman and that this will mean something.

Reborn on the Barge, Ilde is a very confused and traumatized young woman. She does not trust the Admiral's offer, nor most of the other passengers. She is standoffish, even with her regular 'friends'. Her religious trauma runs deep, and she is puzzling her way through reconstruction.

She still can't always differentiate things that are good about herself vs bad things that were really out of her control. She is, however, making ground in her sense of agency. She feels strongly that she has a right to make her own decisions.

She has mostly accepted that even when Dreus has made it on to the Barge, he has been contained and controlled. Which eases her fear that everything is going to just burn down around her.

Mostly accepts that she has friends and that it would hurt their feelings if she said otherwise.

Last time she did something completely delulu and reactive, she apologized publicly without lashing out at anyone else about it. Good job.

🌹 She knows Dreus was awful and insane, but she misses him sometimes anyway.
🌹 She remains aware of the mark of chaos on her mind. It still bothers her during events that ping its interest. It would be nice to get rid of it.
🌹 Her fantasies about being a cruel and vengeful goddess are more passive.
🌹 She does not want to talk about Graduation, she just wants to be left alone to live her life.
🌹 She should invite everyone to a big funeral for her world in the Enclosure eventually...

🌹 She's difficult to engage because she does not want to be engaged. Best bets are usually any network posts she puts up or a meet cute somewhere, especially the Greenhouse.
🌹 Standoffish, and while often helpful and cooperative... not tries to nice friendly.
🌹 Found most often in the Greenhouse and Library. She talks and sings to the plants and will climb the bookshelves for things, if not impeded.
🌹 She is knowledgeable about all sorts of mundane tasks, but completely confused and put off by any amount of technology.
🌹 Generally, responds negatively to people who try to empathize with her. She's coming around to sometimes seeing herself in others without losing her shit.
🌹 If you have religious-based trauma, she's certainly a person you can talk to.
🌹 Is more familiar and comfortable with the evil or morally grey.

🌹 She fleshed out the edible flowers in the Greenhouse, and invests time in processing the crops. You have probably tried some kind of pickled seed or flower.
🌹 Researching water features with Aerith.
🌹 Researching non-toxic Christmas plants. 🌹 Researching DIY hydroponics systems.